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Sunday, April 12, 2009

Maple Story – Episode 41

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Today is the day to go back.

At the moment when I dragged out of my luggage from the hostel room, I could feel the sense of emptiness. Deep in my heart, there’s something clogged up, but I was unable to tell what kind of feeling is that, just emptiness perhaps.

The room which I had stayed for 41 days, suddenly, became so vacant, as if nobody had ever stayed there. The liveliness before had suddenly vaporized to nowhere, only solitary and loneliness were left.

Don’t know why, the room looked sad.

Perhaps, it’s unbearable to us as well. Though we were not good owner, we had never cleaned it up properly; still at least we had brightened up its days with laughter. Maybe this was the reason why it looked the same as the first day I saw it, but the feeling given by it was so different.

I don’t wish to fill the room with my sentimental anymore, that’s why I left the room after the “goodbye” whisper.


In the bus heading to airport, although I was so exhausted, I told myself not to sleep, because this was my last 2 hours to be in Wuhan.
I opened up my eyes big, to be able to glance through my life experience here, the 41 days.

Looking at the streets, the shops, the bus, the people, made me feel that so near, yet so far.

In the 41 days, I was also walking on the pedestrians which will be invaded by cars out of no time.
In the 41 days, I was also eating with chopsticks in right and holding the bubbles tea in left.
In the 41 days, I was also squeezed in the crowded bus, hating people fitting in rudely.
In the 41 days, I was also one of the people waiting the bus and looking for coins at the same time.


I was, one in the crowd before.
But why, suddenly I had turned out to be an outsider?


I don’t want; I really don’t want to leave.
I don’t want to leave the feeling staying in Wuhan, I don’t want to leave the life surviving out alone, and I don’t want to leave the no stress life here.

But no matter how, I had to leave. No matter how good the life here is, I had to go back, go back to do I should do, go back to face the reality.

So, I took the flight home, because my family is waiting for me, 3417km away.


When bidding farewell with the local students in the airport, I don’t really feel sad, as I know we will still be meeting each other, in the future, when they come to Singapore.
And when that time comes, I will become the host and treat them nicely.
That was the reason why I didn’t cry.

But still I was sad for leaving Wuhan.
It’s so nice of it, yet it is so short of it.
But no matter how, I know, the memories are going to stay with me for long.
Thanks all, for all the memories we created together.




Though I was breathing in the air of my country, I know, my heart will still miss you, Wuhan. Bye.

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Saturday, April 11, 2009

Maple’s Special – 41


Before I left Wuhan, I guess I should say something about my overall impression to China.

To judge a country, whether it is good or not, really depends. Everyone has different perspective and criteria on saying. Some priority goes to the safety problem, some priority goes to the facilities wise, and so it’s really hard to tell.

To me, China is quite a nice country to stay. Though I’m input with all kinds of rumors at first, about the bad characteristics of people, the unsafe environment, the unhygienic food and etc, I still feel that China is a great country.

Perhaps the food here is not so hygienic, but at least I don’t suffer from diarrhea.

Perhaps the environment here is not so conducive, but you will still get used to it after a while.

Perhaps the people here are very straight forward, but at least they speak out their real mind.

Perhaps the things here are not durable, but at least you pay very little.

Perhaps, what I feel most comfortable in China is the freedom feeling, the feeling when I am out alone, without guardian of family, have the full right on my life. It’s something that I have never had before, and that’s why it is making me so calm in leading my life here.

No matter how bad the facility is, no matter how unhealthy the food is, no matter how rude the people are, I am still alright with it, because I got the freedom I longed for.

But of course, the relaxing lifestyle and also the low standard living here are parts of the reason why I am comfortable. Because everything is just nice, right at your pace, so that you don’t need to rush for anything. And that’s where the peaceful feeling comes about.

And when you feel peaceful in a place, you will feel the country is great. So, I guess my overall impression to China is an A grade.

If there’s someone asking me if China is bad, I will say, “It is best of all.”



To China,

I like you and I will miss you.

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Maple’s Special – 40


Our trip is going to end and I guess it’s time for our lecturer to feel relaxed.

After tortured by us for 40 days, I guess our lecturer should feel relieved now. Finally he can see the glimpse of burden-free again.

Maybe it seems nothing for a lecturer’s job on looking after a group of teenagers who know how to handle themselves, but I guess that is still a tough responsibility to uphold.

When we’re out without him, lecturer worried about our safety. When we’re sick, lecturer had to share his honey with us. When we’re injured, lecturer had to accompany us to the hospital. There’re actually lots of things for a lecturer to handle, but it is just all behind the scene.

I know that, that is why I wish to tell him a thank you.

Thank you for taking care all of us.

Thank you for treating us at restaurants.

Thank you for giving us permission to stay over in KTV.


And for all the mistakes that we have done throughout the journey, as a student leader, I apologize for not setting up a good example.

Sorry sir.

I hope that you can forgive us, as we’re youths and love to have fun so sometimes we will forget about what we supposed to it. We don’t really mean it, but it just occurs. So sincerely hope that you can embrace all the mistakes we made.

Anyway, I guess all of us had fun for the journey, so let’s just keep this unforgettable memory into our mind and let it be there forever!


It’s tough to take care of a bunch of smarty like us. Thank you.

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Friday, April 10, 2009

Maple’s Special – 39


Well, I must really say that Singapore students are blissful. Guess why? Because all the information we need is easy available. In Singapore, there’re thick references books in public library which we don’t even need to spend a single cents on buying. In Singapore, there’re wireless connections almost everywhere, as long as you have a laptop, the information is just at fingertip.

However, in China it’s totally different. Due to its state as a developing country, many student welfare facilities are not developed. The library here is not a suggested place to look for information as the books are not really up-to-date. If the student wants to have reference books for research wise, she needs to buy it from the big bookstore which is located in the downtown area.

To a no-income China student, a reference book of 100 RMB is really costly; it equals to their pocket money for almost 10 days. So, in order to buy the books that they really need for study, they need to save up their expenditures, which mean they may have to starve for quite a number of meals.

This is the sad consequence for having no good book resources and poor. I heard that, in order to get the information, those real poor students have to go big bookstore every day, stand and read the books, then memorize out the contents when they’re home. It’s kind of heartbreaking to hear such stories right?

Yet, as Singapore students, many of us do not really maximize the resources in our country. We spent our leisure time in gaming more than visiting the library. Worse comes to worst, some of us don’t even browse through the books in library. We don’t really cherish what we have and just set it aside.

But do you know, at the moment when we’re throwing the great facility aside, there’re thousands eager eyes that desire to have it? So, let’s cherish what is in our hand. Making visiting library as part of our life, exploit this great resources to the maximum, as it is a place for you to gain wisdom.

Reading is not for the sake of others, but for you, to upgrade yourself.

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Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Maple’s Special – 38


I got a great sentiment about desire to learn today.

Due to their mono-language environment, China Chinese don’t really have the chance to practice their English speaking.

As you know, language is a study which requires real life experience. It’s not all about investigating books principle, but more to a face-to-face communication, heart-to-heart talk. Let’s get back to the basic, language is meant for communication, it’s a medium for one to understand the others, it’s a method to express your opinion out. So in order to upgrade one’s language level, besides reading on books, real life communication is very crucial.

That’s why the China students are very looking forward to our meet-up. To them, the English corner arranged is a testing session, a great place for them to test out their English speaking with foreigners like us. (In their expression, Singaporeans are great English speaker and do not know how to speak mother tongue Mandarin.) In fact they’re very anxious, they’re afraid that their English level is still not up to level.


Nevertheless, from their eyes, I can see their eagerness, their desires in learning English. I can really sense their desire to improve, as they tried very hard in uttering out every single word. They squeezed themselves not to replace the unknown vocabulary with mandarin word. As they know, English language is important, for them to survive in this new era.

Observing the way they spoke their hearts out with English, I felt that I was really a good for nothing. Though I am a Malaysian who is not native English speaker as well, at least I got the chance, to practice my English speaking in Singapore, such an English-prior environment. But, I didn’t make a good use of my times in Singapore. I didn’t really take an initiative to upgrade my poor English standard, yet let my broken English continues to grow. It’s kind of shame, for having such a great environment, yet do not know how to utilize it properly.

Thanks god that I had the chance to attend this English Corner. It doesn’t help to improve my English, but it lights up my long-dead-desire to learn English. Their desire to learn has motivated me, to brush up my English level.


I am going to be like you, learn English properly.

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Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Maple’s Special – 37


Well, due to the rock climbing event today, I verify the value of willpower. In order to climb to the top, great determination is really needed.

When we’re stuck in the middle and don’t know how to continue on, your willpower will be the factor which determines if you will able to hang on or give up.

If your willpower is strong enough, you will push yourself to the top.

If your willpower is weak, you will give up very easily.

This theory doesn’t apply solely on rock climbing, rather on our whole life.

If I were to ask you, what is so different between a successful person and a failure one? What leads them into different paths of life?

The answer is simple, just mentalities, willpower and luck.

But out of these 3 factors, only willpower is something that we can work hard on. Mentalities and luck are something beyond our controls; hence we must make good use of our willpower. As long as you have the determination in achieving success, you will throw in all your efforts in. No matter how tough or how suffering is the journey, you will still endure it and get it over. And all these efforts will produce a successful person.

Whereas, for those who fail, the main reason of their failure is always lack of determination. When the willpower you instilled in your project is low, it’s really hard for you to pull through the challenges you encountered. It’s very natural for you to give up, as there’s no back-up spirit which requests you to hold on. The missing of the back-up spirit, your willpower will mean a lot of difference.

It’s really clear that willpower will influence a person’s life, leading to victory or defeat of life. So, in order to succeed in anything, be prepared. Set your mind, switch it to the “determined” mode, brainwash yourself that you can do it, and be confident in doing it.

Never give up before you try your full strength. If you never carry on, you will never know how powerful your potential could be.


So, let’s buck up! Heading to the “never-say-die” spirit! :X

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Maple Story – Episode 36

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Yoho! Today was an entertaining day!

We went to WUST Zhong Nan Branch School for Leadership Training Program.

*Thanks to this program, our IS presentation got postponed! Yippy! :) *

Although I can only keep silent throughout almost the whole day again, it’s still interesting!

I played a lot of great games which I had never tried before in Malaysia!

First, we’re divided into 4 groups, with each group comprising 20 people. And thank god that I was with Felicia, Ian and Kumaran, so that they can talk on behalf of “muted” me.

Since both Ian and I were muted, the group’s so dead at the bonding session!

We can’t even think of a good team name and also logo!

But then at last they came out with an idea – AFRO, inspired by the perm hair of our captain.

Then, an “artist” drew a fantastic logo, resembling the face of our captain! Haha.


During the flag introduction session, our captain pointed at our flag and said, “He’s me, I’m him!”

Later on, we’re tasked to do the MOVING BELT of tanker, by using purely NEWSPAPER! And 20 of us had to squeeze and step in the belt, in order to move to a tasked destination!

Oh My God, so tough right?! We all cracked our head and tried to think out of the box.

Luckily, our group had Ian and me! Though Ian and I were mute, we two were the resourceful strategists of our team! We used sign language to convey our message across the team. It’s so funny to see their expression when we’re communicating with lip + sign language. But, at least they got used to our communication method. :)

Next, we had a trust-bonding game, called 信任后仰.

In this game, one person was required to stand up at a height of 2m, with all the limps tied with ropes and jumped down backward. Your teammates were asked to stand at the ground, and catch you.

This game was really testing your trust to your teammates. If you really trust them, then you will fall with easy feeling. But to me, the feeling was so horrible! I didn’t fall flatly, just fell with sitting position.

I don’t know why, but maybe just that I can’t have the secure feeling from them.

I just can’t entrust myself to others maybe, at least not whole hearted. >.<

But still, when you’re caught by the team, the feeling’s beyond words especially the warmth you can feel. Great!

Then, we had a challenging game – 跳跃神.

Everyone had to put on the “super-tight” safety-assuring strings first then on one-by-one turn, we’re asked to climb all the way to the top, and jump a 1.5m gap.

Looks very thrilling right? But actually, it’s very simple, unless you’ve phobia for height.

I just ended it with a nice jump, and then scrolled all the way down.

Haha. After this game, I guess, I’m really prepared to go for my bum-gee jumping on my 21! YOHO!

After this, the last game’s rock-climbing攀岩.

For those who’re enthusiasts of NPCC, I guess this game had no kick at all. It’s only 6 levels high, and resembling the one in Singapore.

But, today was my first try! In Malaysia, such facilities were not available, unless you go for NS. That’s the reason why I was so excited.

I tried it, but I didn’t manage to conquer it, because I got stuck at the middle, sad.

With never-say-die spirit, I tried again!

But sad to say, the result was the same. I didn’t manage to complete it. Sob.

Anyway, I got higher this time, just 3 slots more I’ll reach the top. Perhaps, I was too exhausted, that’s why my hand slipped away.

No matter how, at least I had wonderful moment! Haha! :)

I’ve started to miss here, Wuhan.

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meiyi 19
8th January
a girl who's borne in winter,
yet loves autumn..

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lame jasper

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